Happy 4th of July!

I thought I would put our National Anthem and the chorus to God Bless the USA on this post. These two songs really make me emotional. I love this country. It's not perfect, but it's home.

Please remember that this is the Land of the Free because of the Brave.

Have safe and happy 4th of July.

The Star Spangled Banner

Oh, say can you see by the dawn's early light
What so proudly we hailed at the twilight's last gleaming?
Whose broad stripes and bright stars thru the perilous fight,
O'er the ramparts we watched were so gallantly streaming?
And the rocket's red glare, the bombs bursting in air,
Gave proof through the night that our flag was still there.
Oh, say does that star-spangled banner yet wave
O'er the land of the free and the home of the brave?

Chorus to God Bless the USA

And I’m proud to be an American,
where at least I know I’m free.
And I wont forget the men who died,
who gave that right to me.

And I gladly stand up,
next to you and defend her still today.
‘Cause there ain’t no doubt I love this land,
God bless the USA.

Tell Me

Just wonderin'.....

Regardless of your political affiliation...

How do you think Obama is doing?

Home Study Scheduled!

We are having our home study for our adoption on June 19th!!!!! (squeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!)

After that, we just wait for a very special phone call!!!!

Wooooooooo Hoooooooooooooo!!!!


6/11/09 UPDATE: We had to move our home study to the middle of July due to my hubby's work schedule. BUT WE ARE STILL EXCITED!!!!!

Last Night, I Didn't Get to Sleep at All

Well, we did it. We finally have ALL of our adoption paperwork in. {{whew!!}}

We are now waiting for our background checks (I think I covered up most of my past pretty well!) and as soon as those come back, our home study will be scheduled. From there... we wait...and wait... and wait to be chosen. But, if things go as quickly for us as they did for 2 other couples in our ward, we will have a baby within a year.

AAAACK!!!!! I am kind of freaking out. So much so, that I have not been sleeping well. At. All. I am exhausted during the day, and then when I should be tired at night, I can't sleep!

I have been trying to have kids for almost 18 years of my life. What am I going to do once I have one? I feel like Capt. Ahab going after my whale. This race will be won, this mountain will be conquered, this fight will be over soon. I have been at it so long I can't see past this.

What happens next?

Riddle Me This

I often contemplate my role as a wife and the relationship I have with my husband.

I have been also thinking of late about becoming a mother. When I think of this, I am excited, thrilled, nervous and scared as H. E. double hockysticks. I kinda know what to expect, you know, about the basics, the rudementary tasks of motherhood, such as changing diapers, feeding, bathing, etc. What I am unprepared for is the emotional part... but not just about how I will feel toward our child. What I think about is how becoming parents will change our marriage.

I had often worried that it would put some distance between us, that we wouldn't be as close as we are now.

This past weekend, we were able to spend some time with my hubby's family. His sister has 2 children. One of which is my buddy. From the time we got there we were attached at the hip and I was her personal entertainment unit, hug giver, jungle gym, book reader, song singer, knee bouncer, you get the picture. It is like this everytime we see them, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

During this whole time, my hubby was right there, playing, tickling, being a part of it all. On the way home I shared my concerns and we had a really great discussion about it. I know that 2 days does not predict a lifetime, but being the worrier that I am, it really put my mind at ease.

So, for all of you mom's out there, how did having a child (or children) change your relationship with your husband?